Saturday, July 07, 2007

Don't say that you love me! Just tell me that you want me! Tusk!

Fine. Fineity fineity fine.
I will update - for who am I to deprive the world of a certain person's thoughts?

That and I should be getting ready to go out. There's nothing like updating a blog when it comes to procrastination.

While I'm here, I thought I'd solicit your help in figuring out what this little grab means...
A friend of mum's brought some DVDs back from Bali (I'm astonished - they work!), including Fantastic 4 II. On the back of this DVD is the quote "...instantly forgettable as it is momentarily enjoyable." - NY Times, A.O. Scott.

I'm having trouble with this. Mostly because the grabs on DVD covers are meant to say how wonderful the movie is... So what the h-e-double hockeysticks is that quote doing?
Somebody?
Anybody?





Friday, April 27, 2007

Like Disco Lemonade



... It's a law thing.


I heart Justice Kirby!

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Due to lack of interest tomorrow is cancelled

While I'm here eating my breakfast and not typing up my contract notes I thought I'd share with you some observations. I mean, for what else does a blog exist? So here we go:

Hugs - a short analysis

I'm sure we all know what hugs are and, unless you're completely covered in spines and don't bathe, I'm guessing we've all experienced a hug at least once. For those of you who don't know, a 'hug' could be defined as 'an embrace', 'wrapping one’s arms around another person' or 'a group of teddy bears'. In this case I'm going to focus on the first two meanings, as interesting (and terribly cute) as the third meaning is. A hug is a form of expression of affection – you can hug friends, family, lovers, animals, trees and really anything else to which you wish to show fondness. Due to this wide range of huggable items there have naturally developed different hugging styles and rules. You would not hug a family member in the same way you would hug a lover (Tasmanian readers may feel free to ignore this rule) just as you would not hug a lover as a friend. In the next few paragraphs I’m going to concentrate on the difference between ‘hug types’, what you can generally tell from a hug and hug problems. Let us begin.

Hug types – the friend hug

Friend-hugging is a very prevalent trend in today’s society, decidedly more so than in past generations. All you need to do is look back through books such as The Great Gatsby, Pride and Prejudice (by Jane Austen, boys, JANE AUSTEN!), Moby Dick or Lord of the Flies to notice that friends didn’t hug each other hello or goodbye nearly as much as they do today. Back in “the day” hugging was a big thing, especially because it meant invading somebody’s personal space and letting them into yours. To hug somebody, especially somebody of the opposite sex, was just not the done thing and often quite scandalous. Ah the days when just hugging somebody would get tongues a-wagging… such a far cry from Jerry Springer. These days you have to have quintuplets with your father’s gender-confused third husband/wife only to find out that she is an ex-stripper having an affair with your best friend and cousin to get a bit of a media circus. But I digress.

In today’s huggable society it is common practice to hug a friend when saying hello and hug them when saying goodbye. The ‘friend hug’ as different from other sorts of hug has the following properties:

- Arms wrapped around somebody with hands placed anywhere from below the neck to half-way down the back

- Space between hips and lower bodies

- Head over the shoulder of the other person

- Relatively quick with a mutual ‘pull away’ point (as a general rule: the longer its been since you’ve seen someone, the longer you can hug them)

Depending on who you’re hugging, there may also be some back slapping (as in the male “I’m hugging you, but I could be hurting you. Hugging, but hurting, hugging, but hurting”). These properties of a hug, all unconsciously done, allow you to express to your friend that you like them as just that – a friend.

Hug types – the lover hug

Now when I use the term ‘lover’ I’m using it in that old sense – as meaning your current ‘more than a friend’ interest, your boyfriend/girlfriend. I don’t want people getting all confused here. So to cut a long story short, a lover hug often has the following properties:

- Arms wrapped around somebody with hands placed pretty much anywhere you like

- Hips and lower body pressed together

- Head placed over the shoulder/cheeks pressed together/under a chin etc etc

- Longer and tighter than a friend hug

These properties all make sense when you consider the difference between a friend and a lover. You are physically closer to a lover than to a friend and so more of your bodies will come into contact as your personal space is less ‘personal’.

Things you can tell from a hug

- Well there’s the obvious ‘You’re my friend’ (or ‘I have to pretend you’re my friend as I don’t want to socially ostracise you on this particular occasion but trust me its coming’)

- If a friend tries out a more lover-esque hug on you, they may be testing your reaction to becoming more than a friend

- If a friend who usually hugs you stops hugging you it could mean that a) they’re mad with you or b) they’ve started to think of you as more than a friend and are trying to hide it

- The longer and tighter the hug, the more a person is happy to see you

Hug problems

Sending the wrong messages via hugging –

I have a friend (I know!) and for some reason I feel uncomfortable hugging this friend. I finally figured out why the other day – they mix properties of the lover hug and the friend hug and there’s nothing more disconcerting than mixed signals. This friend hugs for just a little too long – past that mutual ‘pull away’ point – and brings their hips too close during the hug. This makes me want to move back a bit, which makes them move forward a bit and it makes for an uncomfortable and roving hug. These factors send mixed signals – does this person think of me as a friend or not? Of course they only think of you as a friend, but the hug always seems a little too… intimate. How do you fix this?

If running away from a hug screaming with arms flailing isn’t a viable option, then a light joke about their hugs should work pretty well.

And so there you have it. That’s my blog post for the month. I hope you found it interesting (and finishable). If you’ve got something to add, go ahead – I’d like to hear it. So with that, I’m going to do something constructive now.

Enjoy yourselves all,

C xo

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Surface Happy - Bittersweet, Agonising Happy

Guess who's back!
Hi. How are you? What's been happening in your world? Moi moi etc, you know the drill.
In lieu of another, much longer post, I give you a piece of writing...

We meet. You take my eyes in yours. You take my mind - just like that. But right now, I don't care because your eyes burn into mine. You talk to me, eyes smiling. You say my name, eyes smiling. You walk away, eyes smiling.
You've stolen my heart, eyes smiling.


Til later all.

Stay young,

-C xo

Monday, December 18, 2006

Blinded by the light, revved up like a deuce another runner in the night

It's amazing how much your relationship with somebody you've never met, let alone seen, can change in the space of one song.
There is a builder next door.
He is building something.

He woke me up with his radio and power tools at 8am.
I hated him all morning. I hated him when I got up, I hated him when I went to the gym and I hated him when I sat in bed reading and being melancholy.
But now I love him.

There's nothing quite like listening to a builder sing along to 'Blinded by the Light' (with the obligatory 'douche' instead of 'deuce' because nobody really knows that line) and really get into it. It came onto his radio and he was away - voice breaking at the appropriate moments, completely mis-hitting the high notes... It was possibly the best thing I've heard all year.

He made me smile today and for that I thank him.

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Hey you, what do you see? Something beautiful? Something free?

Here, have a tiny poem.

One by one
down we fall
til there's no-one left
none at all

Sunday, December 10, 2006

They said 'aren't you that suicide bomber that blew up that bus last year?' I said 'no' They said 'yes' I said 'You're not thinking this through...'

I'm feeling too lazy to do any real posting today... but I shall... eventually.
For now you're just going to have to make do with a couple of my photos taken on my little old camera. I say 'little old' because Dad has given me his speccy camera for a christmas/birthday present and it is the most awesome thing
in the world! Anywho, enjoy and I will talk to you all later.

Best,

Caitlin


Bee

Tree Roots

Friday, November 24, 2006

Hey little bird, fly away home, your house is on fire, your children are alone

I've made a decision.
I'm going to become a hermit. It's quite an appealing option when you think about it - firstly, I won't have to deal with people (so there goes any need to look after my physical appearance or really care what I do and when I do it) and secondly, I figure once I go mad (which is inevitable as I see it) I won't get lonely because The Voices will be there to keep me company.
Its win-win really.

Sunday, November 12, 2006

I don't see no holes in the road but you

Passenger of mine oh
Passenger
my mind
aches
just for you
aches
it
adores you
I dream
and
you won't leave me
alone
just let me
go oh
please
Passenger
just leave
Passenger
just go
Passenger
oh please

please

We can't go on like this

I can't go on like this

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Like a harpoon, like a harpoon...

Where for art thou, oh my muse?

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Proof irrefutable

I've finally done what no man or woman has done before - I have irrefutable proof that time is cyclical. “You’re crazy, Cait.” I hear you say, “There’s no way you can possibly prove that, you crazy crazy little thing!”

Firstly: hey, watch it. Don’t call me crazy. Find a thesaurus at least, jeese. But more importantly, let me lay my evidence before you.

Last month I downloaded a trial version of Norton Anti-virus for my computer – one of those ones that lasts for 30 days then expires and asks you to buy the product. Like any good cheapskate I am always on the lookout for some way to cheat the system and get free virus protection. So I think to myself, ‘is there any way I can trick the computer into thinking less than 30 days have passed?’ And then it hits me – what if I turn the computer’s clock back? Granted, the odds of this working are low; if the software designers out there haven’t already picked up on this little trick I would now be dutifully downloading free stuff and turning back the clock all over the place. But what the hey, it was worth a try. So I tried. I turned the clock back fifteen days – not too many, not too few. And bam! I get the message – the message that is my undeniable evidence that time is cyclical:

This product has been installed for 11300657 days. Please renew your subscription if you want to continue using our services.

I’ll give you a minute to let this sink in…

...

...

...

...

...

...

...

...


I know!

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In 11300657 days it’s going to be the 28th of October 2006 ALL OVER AGAIN. Can you imagine the ramifications of this?! It’s really going to screw around with future generations. In 11300657 days everybody alive on the 28th is going to spring back and relive everything again. Maybe it’s already happened. Maybe it’s already happened lots of times. How would we know?? It seems computers are the only ones who can predict it – maybe even only *this* computer… Oh wouldn’t it suck though – I’m imagining a scene some 11300656 days in the future. Ridge (a swarthy Italian moon farmer) is confessing to Brooke (Second princess of the third moon of dwarf planet Saturn. Also his wife) that her daughter, Frank, in fact belongs to another man. It is three seconds to midnight and Ridge is divulging the secret that has been tearing him and his Siamese twin, Cliff, apart.

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“Brooke,” Ridge cries, “I have been lying to you for 17 moon years.”

Here Brooke gasps and grabs the back of a chair as the digital time-keeping machine on the wall begins to chime midnight.

“It’s about Frank. She’s not…” Dramatic pause. “She’s not your daughter. Frank’s real father is none other than-” BZZZZZZZZRRRRRTTT

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And it’s the 28th of October again. Brooke will never find out who Frank’s real father is and I’ll be forced to type this post out over and over and over again for all eternity!

And the computers are the only ones who will ever know…

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Ok. That was a little crazy.

Well that’s enough epiphanying for me (I think I just made every English teacher I’ve ever had cry)

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Till later then and keep well,

_

C
xo

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Would I blow everyone's mind if I ate dessert first?

As I sit here, sipping water from my stolen airplane wine glass, I feel I've reached a turning point in my short life: Clothes have started to best me.

Or more specifically, pants.

Let me explain – I went pants-shopping on the weekend and, among other things, bought a pair of brand-spanking new 3/4 pants. These are no ordinary pants – these are the most comfortable pants in the world! They’re cotton and brown and fit just right so I can move without feeling pant replace vital organs, but today when I wore them to uni I started to realise something was not right.

It began thismorning on my usual mad dash from the parking-lot to my 8am stats lecture. I go to put my hands in my pocket and… hmmm… no pockets. But that’s ok because I don’t need pants that have front pockets, my hands can just as easily swing by my side as I walk. Sure, they’re a little chilly now, but hey it’s not like they’re going to drop off. Then, later this afternoon I go to put my phone into my back pocket – I lift the pocket flap and – nothing. I try the other pocket-flap. Again nothing. I spend the next five or so minutes turning in circles trying to find a pocket to put my phone in and at the end of it all I’ve only this to say: WHY THE HELL DON’T MY PANTS HAVE POCKETS?? They have pocket flaps, yes, but no actual bloody pockets. Where am I supposed to put my stuff?! And how on earth did I not realise the distinct lack of pockets when I bought them?! I blame the flaps. What is the use of a pocket-flap if it is not protecting the top a pocket? I ask you… what are things coming to when you can’t buy a ridiculously comfortable pair of pants that come with pre-installed pockets. What, are pockets optional extras now?
Jeese, between my pocket-less pants and my random-and-big-enough-to-fit-one-10c-coin-in-pocketed shirt, things just aren’t making sense any more…


Tuesday, October 10, 2006

It's Tuesday and I should be doing my linguistics assignment...

I have driver’s tan. The backs of my hands are brown… how did this happen?

(If anybody says 'driving' I reserve the right to keel haul you, k? K.)



- C

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

I was thinking more along the lines of 'ct'

A quick note:

Tripod are coming to Perth in December - let me know if you're up for it!!


Friday, September 22, 2006

And we shall blank them in the ambulances - a quick rant

I haven’t had a rant for a while, but now feels pretty right.

(Ahem)

Overgeneralising aside, why don't boys get interpreting subtlety?? I mean my god! It seriously isn’t that hard. It’s been part of human society for a good while now; you’d think they’d have picked it up.

Now, I don’t mean to sound bitter – oh what the heck, I’m obviously going to be screaming bitterness – but seriously guys. Pick it up. And use it.

A quick note on how to interpret subtlety –

  1. If ever a girl says anything to you ever, always look below the surface. Sometimes she means what she says but most of the time there’s a cake-full of layers sitting there hitting you around the head.
  2. If ever a girl does anything (or you notice a distinct lack of something) ever, well, see above.
  3. Now practice.

Please oh please don't make me do my crim assignment

... went to the movies on a Wednesday, went to the movies on a Thursday, went to the movies on a Friday...

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

Bear with me here (slightly revamped)

This is the culmination of an overactive mind and note-taking for Criminal Law tomorrow. As you can see, I got a little distracted from chapter 17 and decided to write. So four or so hours later, here’s the result. Its one part truth, two parts fictitious exaggeration and three parts tired fluiness. But its either this or let it disappear into the bowels of my computer. So read on.


It has no plot, no title and the repetitive style probably means you’ll get half way and tune out. But I think that’s all part of it.


Who the bloody hell is she?
This is not an easy question to answer. Who am I? Really? For a while I’ve been mulling this over; letting it role around the inside of my head, onto paper alongside hot chocolates and morning sun. Is that person I talk to in the mornings, throughout the day and late into the night – that voice in my head – me? Am I that person who puts my car into neutral and lets my little brother push it out of the driveway just to see if we can? Am I that person who taught herself to grin lopsidedly in early high school? Who loves to laugh and fool around? Whose sense of humour is strange and quick and slightly twisted. Or am I that girl who stands so close to the mirror every morning and searches her own face while putting on foundation and concealer? And when I finish, is that me or just my daily mask staring back? That person who laughs and jokes and grins just to give the impression that she’s happy – to prove that she is fine. That person who even when she is not fine, even when she cried herself to sleep, will still laugh and grin and joke and fool, because that is who she wants to be. Because she collects the joker from the pack of cards.

Am I the girl who feels the eyes of the world so sharply on her every movement, even the eyes that aren’t turned her way? What must they think of me? And why do I care? The person who tells herself she is being stupid – they don’t care. They don’t care. So why do you?
Who dissects and analyses

Every.

Little.

Thing.

Until she is sure she’s done something so wildly embarrassing and what must people think of her? People don’t think of her. And is that worse?

Why didn’t you say that then? Where did your words go?

Who finds talking to strangers so exhausting, who finds talking to people so exhausting.

But who loves the people anyway.

The naive one, the innocent one. Takes so long to make friends, to open to people but once there would walk through fire for them. Who wouldn’t doubt their word. Who finds it so hard to let them out of her heart, because they proved themselves just by making it in. Who never loves by halves, never hurts by halves. Who exists to make others feel comfortable and wanted and happy. And smile at them, because somebody who smiles is an ally. We love dogs because they are so happy to see us – so why shouldn’t that work on people too?

Whose mind won’t stay still, is always writing stories, imagining scenes, wishing, hoping, fooling itself. Whose expectations are set too high, so that when things don’t meet them (and they don’t) she feels let down by the world around her. Or is she letting the world down herself?


What about that person who reads the horoscopes and hopes they’ll tell her what she wants to hear. Who so dearly wants to believe in a higher power; be it fate, be it Karma, be it God. But when all is said and done… there is still so much doubt.

The girl who feels so much but cannot show it. The girl whose heart stays firmly up her sleeve with those five aces because if nobody knows how she feels, its easier to pretend you aren’t hurt. Because isn’t being hurt a sign of weakness? And isn’t it better to show a lopsided grin or lighthearted grimace than to bother people with trivial things you can’t express in words alone.


Am I the person who likes to test the water first. Whose opinions change to align with others, unless she feels strongly enough about these things. Who always waits for invitation. Who believes in polite conversation and never putting people out. Who listens to opera, Sinatra, Metallica, Dire Straights, Something for Kate,
Linkin Park but never never rap. Except to dance to. Who loves to throw herself around the dance floor, even though she can feel uncoordination flowing through her every movement. Who stands back in front of that mirror and watches herself move to Black Eyed Peas or Old Blue Eyes. And loves the way it feels to move, wishing she could dance properly, but letting the music move her mind so she thinks she can. Who judges a song by its lyrics and wraps stories around the words as they flow. Who sings with her eyes closed when nobody is around.

And will talk to animals.

Am I the mumbler?

The joker?

The writer?

The analyser?

The romantic?

Is this even me? Or is this my insecurities, my affinity for melodrama talking?

Thursday, August 17, 2006

bugger it




Yup. That's it.

Saturday, August 12, 2006

Cop Out

Yes, I know it's a cop out to post poetry on your blog, especially when said poem isn't your own and is one, chances are, that all of you out there in internet land have read. Well, the educated part of internet land in the very least.
But I love this poem. Symbolism, rhyme, meter, its excellent use of imagery to invoke emotion, the way it portrays the fragile mind... Are you yet getting the impression that I studied it last year in lit?
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It even has internal rhyme. I'm a sucker for a good interal rhyme (I love you Edgar Alan Poe)
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In every way it is wonderful, it speaks to me.
I ask you to do me only one favour whilst reading it. When you get to the 'yellow smoke', will somebody out there tell me they see a dog and not a cat? Please?
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Enjoy.
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The Love Song of Alfred J. Prufrock
S’io credesse che mia risposta fosse
A persona che mai tornasse al mondo,
Questa fiamma staria senza piu scosse.
Ma perciocche giammai di questo fondo
Non torno vivo alcun, s’i’odo il vero,
Senza tema d’infamia ti rispondo.

Let us go then, you and I,
When the evening is spread out against the sky
Like a patient etherised upon a table;
Let us go, through certain half-deserted streets,
The muttering retreats
Of restless nights in one-night cheap hotels
And sawdust restaurants with oyster-shells:
Streets that follow like a tedious argument
Of insidious intent
To lead you to an overwhelming question …
Oh, do not ask, “What is it?”
Let us go and make our visit.

In the room the women come and go
Talking of Michelangelo.

The yellow fog that rubs its back upon the window-panes,
The yellow smoke that rubs its muzzle on the window-panes,
Licked its tongue into the corners of the evening,
Lingered upon the pools that stand in drains,
Let fall upon its back the soot that falls from chimneys,
Slipped by the terrace, made a sudden leap,
And seeing that it was a soft October night,
Curled once about the house, and fell asleep.

And indeed there will be time
For the yellow smoke that slides along the street,
Rubbing its back upon the window-panes;
There will be time, there will be time
To prepare a face to meet the faces that you meet;
There will be time to murder and create,
And time for all the works and days of hands
That lift and drop a question on your plate;
Time for you and time for me,
And time yet for a hundred indecisions,
And for a hundred visions and revisions,
Before the taking of a toast and tea.

In the room the women come and go
Talking of Michelangelo.
And indeed there will be time
To wonder, 'Do I dare?' and, 'Do I dare?'
Time to turn back and descend the stair,
With a bald spot in the middle of my hair —
(They will say: 'How his hair is growing thin!')
My morning coat, my collar mounting firmly to the chin,
My necktie rich and modest, but asserted by a simple pin —
(They will say: 'But how his arms and legs are thin!')
Do I dare
Disturb the universe?
In a minute there is time
For decisions and revisions which a minute will reverse.

For I have known them all already, known them all —
Have known the evenings, mornings, afternoons,
I have measured out my life with coffee spoons;
I know the voices dying with a dying fall
Beneath the music from a farther room.
So how should I presume?

And I have known the eyes already, known them all—
The eyes that fix you in a formulated phrase,
And when I am formulated, sprawling on a pin,
When I am pinned and wriggling on the wall,
Then how should I begin
To spit out all the butt-ends of my days and ways?
And how should I presume?

And I have known the arms already, known them all—
Arms that are braceleted and white and bare
(But in the lamplight, downed with light brown hair!)
Is it perfume from a dress
That makes me so digress?
Arms that lie along a table, or wrap about a shawl.
And should I then presume?
And how should I begin?
. . . . .

Shall I say, I have gone at dusk through narrow streets
And watched the smoke that rises from the pipes
Of lonely men in shirt-sleeves, leaning out of windows?…

I should have been a pair of ragged claws
Scuttling across the floors of silent seas
. . . . .

And the afternoon, the evening, sleeps so peacefully!
Smoothed by long fingers,
Asleep … tired … or it malingers,
Stretched on the floor, here beside you and me.
Should I, after tea and cakes and ices,
Have the strength to force the moment to its crisis?
But though I have wept and fasted, wept and prayed,
Though I have seen my head (grown slightly bald) brought in
upon a platter,
I am no prophet — and here’s no great matter;
I have seen the moment of my greatness flicker,
And I have seen the eternal Footman hold my coat, and
snicker,
And in short, I was afraid.

And would it have been worth it, after all,
After the cups, the marmalade, the tea,
Among the porcelain, among some talk of you and me,
Would it have been worth while,
To have bitten off the matter with a smile,
To have squeezed the universe into a ball
To roll it toward some overwhelming question,
To say: 'I am Lazarus, come from the dead,
Come back to tell you all, I shall tell you all' —
If one, settling a pillow by her head,
Should say: 'That is not what I meant at all.
That is not it, at all.'

And would it have been worth it, after all,
Would it have been worth while,
After the sunsets and the dooryards and the sprinkled streets,
After the novels, after the teacups, after the skirts that trail
along the floor —
And this, and so much more? —
It is impossible to say just what I mean!
But as if a magic lantern threw the nerves in patterns on a
screen:
Would it have been worth while
If one, settling a pillow or throwing off a shawl,
And turning toward the window, should say:
'That is not it at all,
That is not what I meant, at all.'
. . . . .

No! I am not Prince Hamlet, nor was meant to be;
Am an attendant lord, one that will do
To swell a progress, start a scene or two,
Advise the prince; no doubt, an easy tool,
Deferential, glad to be of use,
Politic, cautious, and meticulous;
Full of high sentence, but a bit obtuse;
At times, indeed, almost ridiculous —
Almost, at times, the Fool.

I grow old … I grow old …
I shall wear the bottoms of my trousers rolled.

Shall I part my hair behind? Do I dare to eat a peach?
I shall wear white flannel trousers, and walk upon the beach.
I have heard the mermaids singing, each to each.

I do not think that they will sing to me.

I have seen them riding seaward on the waves
Combing the white hair of the waves blown back
When the wind blows the water white and black.

We have lingered in the chambers of the sea
By sea-girls wreathed with seaweed red and brown
Till human voices wake us, and we drown.
--T.S. Eliot
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To all of those going out tonight - have fun.
And to all of those curling up in bed and watching TV that they would never publically admit to watching - god speed. I'm there with you.
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- C

Friday, June 16, 2006

I think I'm going to miss George Bush...

Georgie, georgie, georgie, sometimes you really make my day...
http://www.wonkette.com/politics/video/jon-stewarts-take-on-the-presidential-faux-pas-181018.php

Note: Watch the video first, read the text after... it'll only spoil it otherwise.

Its cut off at the end there, but what really makes it for me is the "ah, touche"... Check out the other videos if you want to hear it.

Right. Enough procrastinating. Back to the books.

C.